Yikes.

Life has been pretty crazy the past few weeks. We have been occupied with doctor appointments, the Realtor visiting the house, saving money, wedding appointments and insane work schedules. I will be honest, I need to talk & I hope you'll listen.

Things which have been happening:

1. I am feeling much better. The pain in my stomach was caused by acid and a small ulcer which has disappeared. I have yet to get my blood test for my kidney but there is no pain so I'm a happy camper.
2. Mark has sleep apnea. He stops breathing every two minutes. Therefore, we hope he gets a sleep machine within the next week. He tried his mask on tonight. Hot stuff.
3. We had a Realtor come to look at Mark's house with a possible buyer. Of course, we need to finish the back bedroom (only paint), hallway, kitchen & bathroom. We are hoping to list it beginning of spring. This has caused for long nights trashing unnecessary items, cleaning and making a house look like it isn't lived in.
4. We are trying to save money. We get paid on Friday and it seems like it's time to pay the bills again. We are both trying to save a certain amount each month for our wedding, our children, our lives together. This has been a huge change for me. I will be honest - I'm not great with money. There is always someone to buy for or something wanted.. clothing, gift for someone or even a trip. It is also difficult because I want to contribute but am limited. I know Mark will always take care of me and our family I just wish I could help more.
5. I was crazy this week. Stressed. Full of emotions. A continuous spinning mind. I am sorry for those who I have hurt. They are the most caring people within my life.
6. Heidi & Brian are almost at the finish line of IVF! We will find out if they are pregnant in the beginning of February. Please pray. Their strength, love, and positive energy is indescribable.
7. Workouts are going good. I have been eating less & doing more workouts each week. I hope this gets me a little more excited to go dress shopping beginning of March!
8. Wedding stuff is great. We have yet to find a photographer but many other little fun details are completed.
9. Valentine's Day is coming up. We set a limit of $20 to spend on each other. I have a few ideas but definitely up for suggestions.
10. I feel I have not been the friend I have promised or said I would be... I am sorry and hope to call and finally catch up. Please know I think about you daily.
11. There are some people in my life who I do not know how to thank. They continuously do so much for me and I do not think I will ever be able to repay or thank them enough for making me smile and making my day a little brighter. I hope they know how much I love and appreciate them.

Thanks for listening. Thanks for loving me. Thanks for the smiles. Thanks for always forgiving. Thanks for trying to help. Thanks for being you.